Where do I begin, what do you do when you feel alone and that no one wants you. I have been interested in a couple of different people but seems as though they were not interested in me. I have been following Christ for sometime and have been faithful in all that I do but does not seem even good enough for Him; I am always wondering what am I doing wrong, why does He not love me, why am I not good enough for anyone and I do mean anyone. I cry myself to sleep wondering if I will ever meet anyone as it seems as though it is NEVER going to happen and I MEAN NEVER. Also, I have done some online dating and met someone whom I have really made a connection (since July 8) with but am having a hard time trusting him, he seems to good to be true and when I asked a friend about their take on how I'm feeling they said that I was hurt very deeply and that I don't want to be hurt and that maybe he is who he says he is and that he truly does care about me. All of that is so true, I keep pushing him away as I'm having a hard time trusting him and don't feel that he is who he says that he is, problem is that my heart is in it and I don't want to let go and be hurt again as it didn't feel good the first time. And, I need to ask forgiveness as I have also let myself be attracted to a married man and have pushed the boundaries in that to the point that I feel terrible for having crossed a boundary that I didn't want to cross. Life is hard and it's even harder when everything is so convoluted and you pray and pray, write your thoughts out, and scream out loud while crying hoping that it helps you to feel better and it never does. As I strengthen my relationship with God I am noticing more of my duties as a mother and wife that I have been slacking on in the past. I know I need to raise my children to know the truth and how Jesus loves us. I know I need to be a mother that has gentle and kind words. I’m working on being the light and hope I can encourage my kids and husband to want more of Jesus in their lives just by seeing how He changes me. I’ve not always been the obedient wife I am called to be, I want to do as the Bible instructs and let my husband lead this family. I’m an outspoken person and so it’s so difficult for me to not argue my perspective but I know that I need not do that, even with my husband. So I come to ask for prayers for strength and guidance and for my journey with Jesus to continue being as strong as I’m feeling it in this season of my life. I need to lean on Him and trust that I can do this as long as I have Him. I pray for my granddaughter Rachel, a new mommy with the birth of her daughter, wt 2 lbs, that Violet will gain enough wt to go home. They predict that she will be home for Christmas .
Anonymous
Received: October 12, 2021
Kayla Absher
Received: October 10, 2021
Joyce Sheppard
Received: October 10, 2021
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